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Well I made it through a week of making my bed, taking my meds properly, taking my vitamins, brushing my teeth (okay I missed a day I was sick) and attempting to get my house back in order. Oh and some puter journaling. I need to do some real journaling, miss my notebooks and pen. Some purging which I have done albeit a minor one, two boxes. I really am dying to dig into some stuff in the bathroom and see what I have. I know there is stuff in there to go through.

Soooo what will my new thing be this week. Oh I'm scared. Maybe pick a room to go through and purge. Start with the bathroom tomorrow? I really need to get my nicotine replacement form faxed I keep forgetting, that also means it is time to start getting in the mindset of quitting smoking, I say as I sit here typing with a *** sticking outta my puss as my grandmother would say.

Okay this is the thing, Saturday I went to an outdoor business birthday party, bands, vendors, food, lots of people I knew. I went around and said hi to everybody and get to a table, get comfy, got my medicated lemonade, ready for the party to start and Jared texts me like four times in a row, see I told him that he could have $10 towards a $60 computer game but when he tried to use my paypal it said insufficient funds. So then he texts me and begins texting me what was in the account where and how much money was spent on that day. He had logged into my bank account information on my computer, password is stored for easy access, to see how much money I had. I was furious, and told him so and he had the nerve to text me back saying that it's not like I am shopping for Christmas or anything. OMG wanted to reach through the phone and smack him, told him he had no right to go through my personal business. He got his ten dollars and I never said anything when I got home. His father is disgusted with him too always texting for money for game stuff. I didn't realize how often he did it.

He is feeling way too entitled. I am going to have to set some boundaries, he goes into my room when he pleases, don't know if he goes in there when I am gone and checks my stuff, every time I go to do something and he knows what it is, he wants to get in front of me and try to take charge not happening. We need to set some rules and boundaries. Especiallly when school starts, no more up all night, no more encopresis is killing me, no more jumping on the anxiety band wagon, no more calling in for him all the time. I wonder if I made a chore list and attached an amount of money to each one if he would earn his money? Would he be lazy and just not give a crap? Kripes he'll be eighteen in a few months. He has finally agreed to let me teach him how to drive because a friend of his just got his license. I think his friends getting their licenses is going to be a huge motivator for him. He is going to want to get out more often, he wants to learn to drive. He talks big motivation but doesn't actually have it lol. Just like his mother.

I went through the end of the week until Saturday thinking this was Labor day weekend lol. I drive my own self crazy. I was in a panic about what we were going to do, thinking I had that party to go to and hitting the grocery store for salad fixings. If I had been in my right mind I would have skipped the grocery store and my car would not be stuck there now.

I would also like to add some mindfulness meditation to my day. It says I can do it anywhere as long as I am comfortable. Only a few minutes can make a difference. Should I totally devote some time to it say five minutes each day to start. Doesn't have to be the same time every day. Maybe when I am feeling stressed. Is stressed a good way to go into a meditation? guess I better find out. Without another one of my meds again, it is the weekend and it has been like four days without one of my heart meds and the doc isn't open so I can call and complain that they are not taking care of it.

I have to go my trapezius, my stress point is killing me.

Updated 08-31-2018 at 10:32 AM by houghchrst

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  1. funnylegs4's Avatar
    I never went into my parents room without permission as a kid. He does need boundaries. As to meditation yes it can be done anywhere at any time. I meditated at a school desk, a hotel room, on a train etc. You can focus on any object or thought, sound, or even body part. I was taught by one of my mentors that if I lose focus on an object I can either refocus on the original object or find a new object to focus on. :)
  2. houghchrst's Avatar
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    I never went into my parents room without permission as a kid. He does need boundaries. As to meditation yes it can be done anywhere at any time. I meditated at a school desk, a hotel room, on a train etc. You can focus on any object or thought, sound, or even body part. I was taught by one of my mentors that if I lose focus on an object I can either refocus on the original object or find a new object to focus on. :)
    Me neither, not the bedroom, purse, nothing. I guess we never discussed it because it wasn't an issue. Now that he has gotten older he needs to know that there are some things of your parents that are sacrosanct and you stay away.

    As for meditation I am seeing a lot about breathing practices so I am using that as my focus for now.

    Thank you for reading
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    Me neither, not the bedroom, purse, nothing. I guess we never discussed it because it wasn't an issue. Now that he has gotten older he needs to know that there are some things of your parents that are sacrosanct and you stay away.

    As for meditation I am seeing a lot about breathing practices so I am using that as my focus for now.

    Thank you for reading
    Yes. I agree. There are just certain things which are basic decency and a respect for privacy. Breathing exercises are wonderful! Enjoy! You're very welcome!!


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